You Don't Have To be Nice

Self-Esteem

2012-02-19T07:48:00.001-08:00

"He's not proud, I was wrong. I was entirely wrong about him". I'm sorry for being such an emotional wreck, but I want someone like him. Someone would never desert me, someone who is as hard-headed as I am, someone who would loath the event as much as I will because we'd rather sit in a corner and read and talk about our day with a glass of apple juice (for me) and a drink of his own in our hands. Someone who would be my, as cheesy as it sounds, bestfriend.

As lovely as it sounds, not every confession ends up with a fairytale happy ending (Sleeping Beauty is actually a case of rape anyway). And no, not everyone falls in love at the first sight. And no, I'm not as funny as Lizzy is. As naive as her. As smart and witty as her. Ah well, the world is my oyster.

Cause I feel like it.

2012-02-18T10:00:00.001-08:00

Bubble Popped.

2012-02-18T09:59:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, for the first time, I've fought with "ahjusshi". I guess I've been pushed to much. We were always bickering. He always has this opposite opinions. Whenever I mention that I stan TaecSu, he will never fail to bash on 'em (the reason why he hates them so much is because he didn't get into JYP).

Last night I was tweeting about SPEED's debut stage and how they don't need Hyouyoung's help (she isn't that famous in the first place anyway). Ahjusshi got mad saying SPEED isn't that recognizable either. After much hatred tweets, he said he got confused between NU'EST (yet to debut) and SPEED. We went back to normal, but he is the last person on my t-line whom I expect to call me a bitch.

Oh and the reason he hate NU'EST so much? He audition for a position in that group. Failed. I guess when they really debut, I'd have to go through this phase again. (Him bashing 'em non-stop and me trynna defend them)

Ah well, all is in past. We should move on, no?

Hectic

2012-02-11T21:21:00.000-08:00

This week's gonna be hectic I tell you. There's TAOS quiz, CM Presentation, TAOS Expo, ETM report ( I'm done with this bit) , KCC booth, ?TESL Commitee Meeting to attend. And ma, going on and on and on and on about house chores. *le facepalm*

19 going on Nowhere

2012-02-11T21:17:00.000-08:00

On 6th February 2012, I am one step closer to become an adult. But I choose to stay as a kid. At heart, that is. There's hundreds (hundred and ten to be exact) of wishes on le Facebook wall, telling me "You're a year older, act like one". Thanks for the wish though. :]

There's thousands of assignments yet to be done (yet, I'm still here. go figure), feelings to be taken care of, people to strangle repeatedly (in my mind, of course), and chores to be done. My journey started a long time ago, but I'm still wandering around. Trying to find out which path is easier for me to set up my tent. Phew.

why i eat so much.

2012-02-05T08:28:00.000-08:00

Useless Piece of Poop

2012-01-28T23:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I went to le half day (spend 12 hours there) in Ulu Yam. I was forced to go, ma'am said we'll get extra marks for TAOS 2nd assignments if we go to this trip (which later, I found out was a lie. Pfft)! The activity was base on Team Building.

We were combined with our seniors (Bachelor students). Lemme tell you, these people (well, those particular people), are not only snobbish, they're rude to the core. My group leader, left the group in the middle of the slot. Because? He's the Programme Manager. Listen here fish, you do not get to leave your group, right after your group member chose you because they thought you can lead 'em well. And no, the PM tittle doesn't effect anything (I happen to know this cause I was one in my 1st sem). So dear useless leader, you suck. YOU SUCK BALLS.

And and, one of my classmates wave at this girl (because they're so immature, ughh), and she ignored her! Hey hey, that isn't cool. Unless you're sworn enemies, a wave back is a MUST. Lemme put this in a sentence:

MY RM55, SPENT IN VAIN.

Frustrated

2012-01-24T07:18:00.000-08:00

These days, I've been too exhausted. I guess it's school and stuff (lack of sleep, hormones, too much junk foods). Nah, it's just me. I have this feelings, that somehow, nothing's working for me right now. At times, I just wanna shoot myself and get it over with. But when I think of my family, my AWESOME friends, I know this isn't the end. This is a shout-out to me, and all y'all out there; HOLD ON! =]

Please, stop breaking it.

2012-01-23T23:11:00.000-08:00

This is last year's commercial. But this is never will, ever, be outdated. Appreciate you parents. Spend 5 minutes with 'em, and you'll see your whole life light up. =]

sob sob

2012-01-22T07:32:00.000-08:00

I only have 2 days of holidays. Gimme 2 reason why I should stay in MSU while my other friends are having 3 months vacation? So. Not. Cool.

Tumbling Down

2012-01-17T06:14:00.000-08:00

“Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying ”

Do you know that moment all you wanna do is curl up like a fetus because nothing seems okay anymore? Do you remember that moment when you feel like suffocating yourself with your pillow? When somehow, every promises made, every sweet nothings whispered seems to be a lie? Yes, that moment. When that particular moment shows up and decide to wrestle you on the groud, you stand back up. Grab that bastard's collar and say "I promise your mom I wouldn't make you cry. Seems like I'm breaking the rules again".

Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up. Stand up.

Fat Cat

2012-01-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

I'm done with this week's exam. Still have one next week (hull). Oh btw, Wong Fu Production is coming downtown! =] Don't know who's WFP? Well aren't you living in a rock! Google 'em now. They're this awesome trio, who make videos, not just vlogs, they film dramas too. A fan of Wang Lee Hom? They filmed his Still In Love With You MV. Yup, their work. And oh oh, ben's gonna get me something (since I can't go, there's a second cousin getting married)! HUZZAH! LOVE YA BEN!

I've been replaying Fat Cat's new song. Rating: ★ ★★★★★. It's that awesome, you try listening to it, and understand the lyrics. & we'd be in the same boat! :]

Resolutions? What resolutions?

2012-01-08T05:39:00.000-08:00

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2012! =] An awesome way to start the year? Make students study their butt off for midterm. Wip Dee Doo! Hey hey, I have the rights to complain. It's been a week and now we have to work hard to survive our current semester. I'm done with my weekly report, now, back to those notes. Plergh!

My thoughts go to all of you who have encountered various mishaps. Stay strong. Everything happens for a reason. =]

2011-12-24T21:42:00.000-08:00

Relationship

2011-12-17T04:58:00.000-08:00

I've been a relationship twice. And both are with my best friend (so, does it count?). And it was all so awkward. With the both of 'em, I've never returned the feeling. I know it was cruel of me but if the sparks isn't there, what am I to do? And now I'm left wondering, did I push away the only two person that would ever really like like me. 

Doubt

2011-12-09T19:59:00.001-08:00

I'm not fit to become one. I had this momentary life-flash-right-before-your-eye moment yesterday, and everything became so clear.

A teacher should have control of her/his class, I can't control my own life.
He/she should have the ultimate knowledge, I don' even have any idea wth KSSR is at first.
A teacher shouldn't be emotionally attached, but I will, trust me I will.
I'm not dependable.

I am not perfect, I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with this. I'll ace it though, that I'll give my word. But I still don't know how I'm suppose to survive after-college-life.

Procrastination.

2011-12-08T04:24:00.001-08:00

We had quiz just now, and the outcomes? Procrastination haven't done any good to me. Yet. I just wanna need to study.

15 mins class

2011-12-02T06:44:00.001-08:00

I had this originally-planned-to-be-a-45-minutes-class. But then, he decided, "Oh, only half of the class shows up, I should end this and have dinner with my kids". & then, it became a 15 mins class, where you'd rather murder yourself than be in because there's nothing to do. That and the fact that there's gonna be traffic. I am so pissed.

t(~.~)\

2011-11-29T06:12:00.001-08:00

FUCKED UP TIMETABLE. Not only we have to attend classes till 8, now we have to attend weekend class. Cool, really cool. I feel like shitting bricks and kicking someone on their balls. Yeah, that's about it.

Throwing eggs around campus anyone?

4 assignments.

2011-11-26T01:50:00.001-08:00

It's been only week one, O-N-E, but I have four assignments already! Whenever they say 'assignment', my mind went "DUDE. NOT COOL". But well, they're the lecturers, the heck are we suppose to say? "Let's burn down the school"? As tempting as it sounds, I'm not gonna spend my entire life in jail doing nothing and fattening myself (that's really good too)! Well now, let's do THIS!

Sem 2

2011-11-21T07:11:00.001-08:00

Class started just now. And oh, tomorrow it'll start around eight. EIGHT i tell you! Alhamdulillah, my results were okay. Now that i'm done with that tiny slice of updates, imma go to bed! Bye bye! :D

Ah, well..

2011-11-14T10:01:00.001-08:00

Stupidity: The most abundant element in the known universe, followed by carbon. That ignorance of yours plus your arrogance, won't get you anywhere bro. You ought to stop that attitude. We don't hate you, we despise your "Bitch, I'm Lady Gaga" side of yours. And dude, you're not all that, really. So stop.

Al-fatihah.

2011-11-10T19:08:00.001-08:00

My grandpa passed away. While we were in Bandung. Around 11 AM. This post is dedicated to the awesome man; Mohd Noor. Tokbak, I'll miss you.

Heading To Bandung

2011-11-06T02:47:00.000-08:00

Hiyya folks! So, I've started packing (two tees and a jean/a nightgown), and I'm flying off at 4 AM tomorrow. Bye bye! :P

Bad Habit

2011-11-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

Me and my sister, we've developed this bad habit. We do not unlock each other's bathroom door. It's a thing. Story is, our room is linked with a bathroom in between. Unfortunately, we have to share (personally I'd want a bathroom of my own. I'd like to scream on top of my lungs while I bath, thank you very much). It's not intentional, truthfully, but it's fun to actually hear the person on the other room banging and screaming and begging you to unlock the door cause they 'need to pee and can't find a key to open the door right, god damn it!'. It's not healthy I tell you, this thing can actually lead you into a fight (it is a bad habit after all), but you ought ta teach the little ones to not mess witcha sometimes.

HiHiHi

i win the bad sister award! :P

Friendship

2011-10-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

LOL this. This is something only few people can understand. && yes, those who does, they're my bitches. These people probably spend way too much time wimme (because they can actually understand this)! I wanna take this moment to say;

I FRIGGING' LOVE ALL OF YOU!

Verified

2011-10-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

I'm heading to a trip in a few weeks. & dude, I didn't even pack anything yet. And I don't think I'm ready to go. Cause you see, the week after I'm done with my trip, I'll be starting my next semester. & to be honest, I'm still in the holiday mood. Aww, damn it! :\

Stay calm &..

2011-10-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

You know that person? That person who seems perfect? That person who looks good in everything they put on? The ones whom talented in everything? That person whom the opposite sex would go head over heals for? Yes, that person that has it all, guess what, they're human beings too. They may look like they're happy, but they're trynna hide the pain. Sounds familiar? Cause they're inside of us. We're all good in things, we all have that one person that thinks of us as their world. So stop all the hate towards yourselves and others.

STOP HATING.

it's not good for health, kay?

Outing

2011-10-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

I'm as happy as Hobear (yes, that's my not-so-creepy-name for him)! I'm going out with my chicas tmrw. Well not all of 'em, but still. I don't how some people would react. I've changed so much. Ah well, it's not like I can change back overnight now can I? I'm planning to eat lots and buy me some LBD series (that's if they got the new series). Can't contain happiness! >:D

Boybands

2011-10-22T10:16:00.001-07:00

imperfection

2011-10-21T10:01:00.000-07:00

See this boy? He's one of the reason why I don't care of my imperfections anymore. He has always been teased of his dumbo ears, but he flaunts it like it's nobody's business! Well guess what, I don't mind if you poke my flab anymore. =] Kiseoppie, you're my new found hero.

Hush Hush

2011-10-20T03:57:00.000-07:00

I don't like how my life is right now. I don't know why it's turning topsy turvy now when I needed strength the most. I keep on replaying on what the fuck went wrong. You've probably forgotten but I've stop lying. Maybe my words are too harsh, but I don't tolerate shits anymore.

Killin' Me

2011-10-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

Can anyone tell me what the hell is the name of what Dongwoo is wearing? Irrikuma? Damn, I've forgotten. Cause I need to buy 'em. I want the hamtaro one! :)

Trip

2011-10-19T00:46:00.000-07:00

The trip was AWESOME! Every single detail was perfect. We had games, karaoke, morning exercise (that one was a bitch tho) & window shopping (the money flowed like a river for me). & oh, sight seeing too! We went to Malacca Heritage, Malacca Town, ate Nyonya & Baba's foods and ah, Sher Lyn unnie treated us sundae's too! :) Oh, how I love the trip. I got a light-stick, packets of seaweeds & a perfume. Ila unnie gave me a FT Island mask (it's so refreshing, imma buy one)! :)

insecurity

2011-10-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

Married

2011-10-16T03:51:00.000-07:00

I wanna have this kind of relationship with my future husband. Where I'd him and he'd be looking all kid-like. && then I'd be all over him to win him back. Ah well, a girl can dream can't she? :P (and oh ma, this is just a wish. I don't have a boyfriend yet)

Holy Crap

2011-10-15T09:55:00.000-07:00

I'm hungry right now. I'm planning on writing, but I'm a lazy ass. But I promise, I will write tmrw! :D && then I'm going to the trip. I'm trynna keep my expectations down. Oh and btw, Zhou Mi's an AWESOME singer. I'm currently listening to his version of I Will Always Love You. & I can truthfully say, I'm speechless (cause I'm typing it down, get it?)! Zhou Mi jjang!

baby shinwoo

2011-10-14T09:38:00.001-07:00

Why can't I have this boy already? >:|

Cheers!

2011-10-13T07:23:00.001-07:00

Partyin' with tumblr & twitter right now. Come join me! :P

{complex}

2011-10-13T02:04:00.000-07:00

Final's O V E R! Who wants to go out? :P I'm going to Malacca btw! This is so exciting. I'm planning to play the poky game. Poky, you know, the chocolate stick? I really wanna see on how others react. And we'd have BBQ too! <3 I'm trynna learn Hangul all over again. I dunno why I even bother since I'm a very forgetful person. Eh, I'll learn it anyway.

Went back to SKBB today. Oh how I miss those days! Pa and I talked about lots of things today. School, boys & friends. I can't help but feeling guilty on how I'm not a boy tho. I bet he'll be prouder if I am. He has always wanted a boy. =[ Maybe when I grow up, I'll adopt or have a baby boy. So that he can be happy.

#idon'tcare

2011-10-08T11:42:00.000-07:00

I'm watching the latest season of Glee right now. Imma continue socio tmrw. Downloaded google chrome. Using twitter on it. An currently chatting with my former class mate! :)

#bethankful

2011-10-07T03:11:00.000-07:00

Be thankful you're not dead yet. Be thankful you're still enjoying your moment on earth while others are suffering. Be thankgul & grateful. Amin. :)

THIS.

2011-10-03T21:51:00.000-07:00

KCC membership

2011-10-03T21:23:00.000-07:00

I'm going to Malacca after finals. And for what you may ask. FOR THE KCC MEMBERSHIP TRAINING! Since I'm already one of 'em, we're training the newbies. It's sponsored by half by my appa (professor pyo), so we need to pay only RM 50. It's exciting, don't you think? :P Ila unnie, Jun-kun & Carmen unnie are all planning on bullying me, but what the heck eh? As long as no one blows nobody's top, I'm fine with it. I'm always bullied anyway.

Jun says she has a girlfriend now. && keeps on hinting to me that I need to find out who the girl is. Even Stella knows the girl, GOD DAMN IT. I will play detective on that training thing. If you're wondering why do I still have time to write this entry when I'm supposed to be studying, I am. ELA includes writing and I'm working on my skills. I shall write more. Oh and both Nana & DJ will be staying over. PICTURES SHALL BE UPLOADED! =3

Another Day

2011-10-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

Nana tweeted about yesterday's KCC performance. I performed yesterday. There's not gonna be another performance by me. I'm done. No one showed up anyway. I know they wouldn't, the reason why I didn't even bother to tell in the first place. I understand how Ila unnie feels right now. She's been through a lot. :(

EYAAAAAAAAD!

2011-09-30T08:24:00.000-07:00

I'm stressed out. Found out that one of my subject course; English Language Awareness (ELA) require me to write factual essay. WTF is that?! I am awesome in writting (yes, I am indeed very vain), but factual writting, it's not my thing you know? Like how some can doodle cutely while others (like yours sincerely) can barely draw a stick dude. Oih. This isn't a perfect moment to discover things I'm gonna fail. Exam's starting next week. && I'm still here. SHIT.

TRALALALLALA

2011-09-28T10:37:00.000-07:00

Ah, exam's lurking. Reading notes. Had a 15 mins of break. Eh, no no. It's an hour now. It's like I don't even care~ && that's a bad thing. Awwwww, shit.

#nowplaying

2011-09-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

Paradise is on repeat right now. As well as JYJ's Get Out. Adique keeps on hacking my twitter acc. Stop hacking; it isn't fun. It'll just make you look stupid and you'll have a bed rep. When you do have a problem, start searching for solutions and not create more problems. You're just not helping yourself. And so, try to get a GOD DAMN LIFE please. Don't drag your problem. It'll go away, eventually.

S-T-U-P-I-D

2011-09-25T04:34:00.000-07:00

Fuck everything. I have to re-write my short story and re-submit it tmrw. Imma do this since a week ago, my head told me to write a short short story which seems-to-be-so-good-at-the-time and to submit it. But now, everything seems so bloody stupid. GTG.

13 going on 14! :)

2011-09-24T00:58:00.000-07:00

Happy belated birthday, adique! :) Akak loves you! <3 May you live a blissful life!

Sharkie's Bday.

2011-09-24T00:26:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday baby sharkie! :) I love your eyes. They are perfect.

HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY

2011-09-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

Finally found an app that allows me to write and edit documents! :) I shall now write when ever, where ever. Yup, I'm jumping all over cause of this. && the fact that i'm using YTinstant and it's super fast. and the fact that tmrw's holiday. HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY, btw! :))))

Mark My Words!

2011-09-11T23:53:00.001-07:00

You, you, you.

2011-09-09T04:07:00.000-07:00

Just had a convo with farah. I miss her. Very much.

Good-bye Baby

2011-09-09T04:00:00.000-07:00

I'm supposed to start with my short story for lit assignment.But I'm outta idea. I've been written lots of things. But I don't think they'll appreciate my writting. I don't think the lecturer will appreciate my idea (it's not what the culture is used to). A writer shall not listen to the haters. So, I need to write shits now.

#areyouseriousbro

2011-09-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

I'm back. From class. My 2 hours class. Life is good. But some of my friends don't even have class today. ;_________________________;

Before I went to class, I've read this headline saying JunHara broke up. I didn't care. When there' an update few seconds later saying they didn't broke up, YET. I still don't care. Well guess what, I don't give a fuck. I know this is all a publicity stunt. Both of 'em needs it for their promotion. For all I care, both sides can go shoot 'emself and I still wouldn't give a piss.

I am so happy these days, I don't even get why. Maybe my life's getting better,eh? Oh and for those who told me AZIATIX sucks, are you serious bro?

Tears

2011-09-07T03:40:00.000-07:00

I cried today, after pa practically screamed in my face. It was hard. Driving. && i'm on my period(not an excuse,but) and stressed out about my final presentation didn't help. So I bursted into tears when pa said my driving was dangerous. Well, maybe it was. But it can't be helped! I just suck. To be honest, I'm afraid of my own driving. ;_______________________;

And then came the presentation time. I don't wanna impress you, but Miss Shalini did say our roleplay is the best! <3 I'm still worried 'bout literature tho. Ah well, better get to work then. I'm stressed out by finals. But I'm doin' nothing like a boss~ S-W-A-G.Imma continue writing after what, a year of writer's block? Better get ready. Imma rock the journalism shit!

I'm going to watch the SMURFS. Anyone wanna join? This monday. Sunway. Be there.

Oh and I don't know why, but my love for these new groups, they're going down the drain. The only reason for why I'm sticking with K-Pop's for the oldies and their non-autotune song. I'm sorry, but if you're trynna be GD & TOP shit, imma let you go. I love how you were and I want to stick with it. The old K-Pop.

I'm finally happy these days. Know why? Know why? I've cut my hair! I'm no longer stressed out. It's as short as Taeyeon's during Mr.Taxi era(as been told by my sister). Eh, what the heck. I'm comfy and that's all that matters~

Sushi Craving

2011-08-29T00:21:00.000-07:00

Mom, i don't get you sometimes. I told dad i was craving for sushi this morning. So when ma & pa went out, i texted them to buy me that BIGGGGGGGGGGGGG set of sushi. && then she called me. She asked which one do i want. "I don't think eating sushi is a good idea". What's the point of even asking then? Oih. Well, whatever, i'll make my own omelet today.

#yeolbeautiful

2011-08-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

I'm moving back home. Since the house owner sucks. He wants to increase the rent, GDI! I've reached my goal. To stop cursing all the time. I do, sometimes. But rarely nowadays. Thus, I deserve a hug! :)

Our lecturer canceled our class for tomorrow. Basically i'm free the whole daaaaaaaaaay! YIPEEE! Imma still do the chores tho. && meeting my ole-neighbour-slash-brother; HARITH HAIZAR! Oh and people, my sister made me change my dp for twittah. So it is no longer alexander lee eusobio, but hwang kwanghee! <3

I'm sorry but he is just too ADORB! 'Kay? 'Kay. Taebby's my desktop background tho. Imma change my Red Nokia wallpaper. It's been months since I've updated anything on that pitiful phone. && i need to update these stuffs on the lappy. Start anew!

For those whom are following me on twitter, i'm sorry i've been flooding your t-list. I've been wee bit emo the last few days. Shit(oops!) keeps happening. Healing tho. Good music heals everything. :) Oh and i've joined K-Class already! Unfortunately, today i had to go back early since i wanna break fast with my family(they're awesome). So, no class today! :P

My so-called love life isn't going good. I'm just too stubborn to move on, i guess. It's so obvious that he's hinting that he doesn't like me, but i'm ignoring them all. && it hurts me so much to see them getting all touchy. I'm oh-so tired to even try. So imma sit here. All alone. ;_________;

Oh and today's baby sungyeollie's birthday. So to all inspirits, remember to make #yeolbeautiful a trend!

Life Rant

2011-08-06T11:52:00.000-07:00

First of all, I'm getting pissed with the haters. I did not, repeat, DID NOT,tell you to go and listen to k-songs now, did I? So stop telling me KPop-sucks-and-guess-what-they're-gay-! thingie. I do know they wear lip gloss & balms. I said nothing when you guys decides to wear skinny jeans to school. So shut up and respect. If dancing to girl bands songs is considered as gay, then 'em arabian dudes who peck each other's cheek must be OVERLY gay, huh? It's call making a point, not racist. So if you're still gonna hate to what I listen and love, get lost.

Ma, you're waaaaaaaaaaaaaay into dongjunnie. Nuff said.

I need a plan. To not bore the hell outta me when I get back to SA. Maybe it's just me,but I like staying at home. Rather than being there where people keeps on making up stuff. Stop telling lies,bitch. If you think you're a better person, tell it to my face. I'm getting sick and tired of all the dramas.

DBSK Rant

2011-08-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

What you missed out about the whole DBSK when you're not a kpoplover;

Their perfect harmony
Their godly charisma
Their not-so-innocent charms
Their love for us fans
Their brohood / bromance

You may say all these are cliches, but you don't know anything unless you've been through what we did. We went through high & low with these boys. We were there when they won 2008's MKMF,even when they didn't promote in Korea (they have other schedule in Japan). & we were there when the trio decided to sue SME. We were there when HoMin did their comeback. We were there to witness JYJ to debut with 'Ayyy Girl'. So unless you were with them, and us, during thick and thin, you seriously need to move your ass away cause you don't deserve to bash us. & telling us to stop 'Always Keep The Faith'.

Well you know what? Unless you're one of those fans who group rise to the top of the world andwere crown as GODS of k-pop, stop telling us what we're doing is wrong. Cause we know there's nothing wrong with believing what we want to.

Infinite Rant, Again.

2011-08-04T22:43:00.000-07:00

Okaaaaaaaaaaaay, I totally take back whatever I ranted before. I guess leader is sick. But Namstar, I'm still saluting you! That 6th episode of Sesame Player totally touched me. I'm letting this one go. You guys were probably tired. But I still have my eyes on the other 5. You guys need to sing or you being idols are just a shit fact. :)

Infinite rant

2011-08-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

Infinite, you are making me mad. Mad, I'm telling you. First of all, why the hell aren't you singing the chorus? Well excluding Woohyun. But the rest of ya'll just mutha fuckin crushed me till no end. Why didn't Gyu sings(if he's sick or down it's acceptable, tho)? I expected better from you guys. Go back to the 'Come Back' days and maybe you'll learn the hard way to get back to singing awesomely. Oh and yeah Hogod, it suddenly occurred to me that you, are only thinking about you rather than the whole group. Srsly boy, the group does not revolve around you. Even Myungsoo wasn't too self-absorbed during those days. Get your ass back hereon earth boys, you maybe on top of them charts but boy you better get your head down again.

Hogonism

2011-08-04T21:48:00.000-07:00

I feel like ranting today.

Dear bitch,

2011-08-04T01:49:00.000-07:00

TRY TO GET A LIFE.

Wipi!

2011-08-04T00:44:00.000-07:00

Ehehey I AM HOME! Yes, home. The place where you can roll around, watch tv till 5 in the AM. Ah,home. && since I'm done with mid-term, I can sit here, for 4 straight hours on the laptop. Right ma?

Right Now

2011-07-23T09:03:00.000-07:00

I finally remember why I don't buy any shirts these past few years. I feel down again today. Somehow at the back of my head, there's always this voice telling me to give up. To stop hurting myself. To stop looking in the mirror. Now, I'm just depressed. And I feel like eating all the time. Chocolate cake sounds so good right now. Damn, and sushi too. I need a personal booster.

Tic Toc

2011-07-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

I do not get how am I supposed to study, spazz about Infnite's comeback & be alive at the same time. I don't. Seriously, I don't. I NEED TO GET A FUCKING LIFE! Damn son, you're all grown up now~ I need to watch you nowadays. You have too many fans. Me no likey.

&& the MBR thingie was a success! I had 10 hours of sleep. But still felt crappy. Nowadays, I don't feel so sad anymore. Heh, let's see how it'll go after this 2 weeks.

Taeminnie

2011-07-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

It used to be so hard finding out about you. But now, you're the prince of the kingdom (& legal). Be strong, Taeminnie. Whatever happens, be strong.

Happy 18th Birthday.

Over

2011-07-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

OH. MY. DARK. LORD. SERIOUSLY, HARRY POTTER IS AWESOME! The movie was so touching, I cried through the movie. It's sad, it's just is. Watching your childhood ends. My sister watched it yesterday, so she wasn't that sad. She was patting me and stuff.

Here's a video to express myself. Seriously.

Oh. OH!

2011-07-16T12:33:00.000-07:00

Saw Yongshern's doppleganger today. Made me miss 'em school days. Dang! This week's kinda hard for me. It's a bitch. Everybody in class keeps on bragging to me that they've watched HP & the Deathly Hallows;Part 2. And I'll just sit there, keeping a straight face. When all I wanna do is kick their asses.

Classes hasn't been so bad although I do need to work hard for the mid sem exams. Ila unnie, Seoyeonnie & Taera went to Kpop Hitz audition, and they didn't even text me what happened. Guess they're too tired. Well, maybe, right?

Infinite teaser was released. And I'm like, OH YEAH HOYA YOU LOOK FINEEEEEEEEE! && then I've realised that Sungjong's the main character. I. CAN'T. BREATH. I keep telling myself to wait for 21st July. Just wait there patiently and not kill myself. Oh and our sugar glider is called DONGJUNNIE *roll eyes*. Yeah, dongjunnie. My sister's bias's name. Whatever. I'll buy my own. Oh and my broadband sucks. I love you guys, buhbye!

Sick

2011-07-10T01:48:00.000-07:00

Nothing will stop me. I AM GONNA BUY THAT BIG FLUFFY ROUNDED ASS RILAKKUMA & KORILAKKUMA! I want 'em. What is wrong with having an obsession with teddy bears?! I LOVE 'EM! Omaigod, this is the moment for;

Dalfinite

2011-07-08T09:45:00.000-07:00

There's still sociology & counselling and guidance. I don't get why they wanna push it back when we could just do it. Anyways, we're to keep a journal as the counselling and guidance project. We're to discuss about our target behaviour. Oh and yeah, I'm supposed to finish MPW's project.

I'm trying to find out how am I supposed to let it out when all these troubles keeps coming out. Damn, I need to start swimming again.

This week isn't so bad, everybody's nice. I'm only feeling fat when I'm next to Nana, or when I start crawling(yes, crawling) up the stairs. And then there's the money problem. I eat too much nowadays, I can't stop. What I don't get is I'm not even that depressed! Oh well~

Changed the song, updated my tumblr. There's still one thing left; DOWNLOADING ALL MY ENGLISH SONGS BACK! I WANT MY SONGS! WHO DELETED THEM?!

Mutualism

2011-07-02T08:50:00.000-07:00

I did tell you that I don't like you. But you're too self-absorb to notice. All you can think of is yourself. No one wants to hear when you're talking about yourself. Grow up! Nobody forced me to like you. I've never even tried to. We just happen to be people who needs to be friend since we're in need of each other. I'm a kid at heart & you're an old lady. I kinda get that. But you don't get to give excuses just because you act like one. Not everybody likes the real you, you told me that, remember?

Whaaaaaat?

2011-07-01T03:12:00.000-07:00

I'm still blur from this week. I've got to finish 2 assignments. Damn, I'm dead. Gotta study for quiz. Luckily, Uztaz was all nice and told us to read only 3 subtopics. Me and my some of my housemates, we're not hitting it off. I feel homesick all the time. && at nights, I'll be in my room rather than staying out watching tv(I am never a loner).

I can't wait till next week. We're having programs and I can collect my GeMS! YEAAAAY! GeMS is like co-curriculum there. One activity= 1 GeMS point. Everybody's hyped for Mdm Shabina's class. She's fun & doesn't look like a man-eating-medusa. She's really nice once you get to know her. & her assignment is probably the best one I've ever heard of; 5 factors that makes you realize your best potential & 5 factors that doesn't. Well, I have to work my butt off now, don't I?

Oh and yeah, STEVE, you are a kid.

A KID I TELL YOU!

Oncoming Quiz

2011-06-25T21:54:00.000-07:00

I'm praying for the quiz to be easy. I DIDN'T READ ANYTHING YET WTF DO YOU EXPECT?! Everyone's being a goody two shoes,trying read everything. & I'm just here, sitting and doing nothing. LOLOLOLOL. I should work hard. (=|=)

Awesome Week

2011-06-24T02:40:00.000-07:00

I've talked to my crush for the first time. Called a liar. Blew my head off. & ate KFC and Nasi Lemak on the same day. And it's only Friday. 2 days to go. Ah, and my Heechul, HWAITING!

CNU

2011-06-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

Shinwoo, my new found love. This boy's too cute. Look at that smile! Look at him! GDI, Y DIDN'T YOU DEBUT SOONER?!

Not So Funny

2011-06-18T09:28:00.000-07:00

I'm mad, I'm mad at my housemate. She didn't finish the work when I told her to finish it by Friday. She played around. & I'm mad at the 8tv Nite emcee, Nadia. In simple words, she's acting stupid and I hate her. I freaking hate her. People, take note, when you admit you're a HP fan, you're supposed to know every character. Not saying stuff like,"Who's that dude that has no nose?". Don't play wimme when it comes to HP. & don't bash my Kpop, girl. You don't the things I'd do for them.

Nose

2011-06-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

Hoya and me have the same nose! OMGGGGGGGGG! LOL, I'm just being stupid here. Forgive me. LOL~ But seriously, me, Hoya & Sunny, we have the same nose.

ZE:A's

2011-06-15T05:43:00.000-07:00

Met Ila unnie today, she's so CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE! Too bad she got an appointment so our 'meeting' was cut short. No worries, we'll definitely meet again. & oh unnie, I'm trying my best to find the cutest Chul's icon! ^______________________^

Bang

2011-06-09T09:07:00.000-07:00

Getting hyped up! Do you guys have any movies recommendation? I wanna watch something before having to bang my head for few months.

Crazy Pig

2011-06-08T01:15:00.000-07:00

So he likes girls with big boobs, what the hell am I supposed to do?

Not Amused

2011-06-07T08:51:00.000-07:00

Ask anyone who talked to me today and they'll tell you I'm depressed. Clearly I am. Class ended early, yada yada yada. It all started when I went swimming with my friends.

I wanted to swim at 3 since I thought nobody's gonna be up there. So me and Seri walked like a boss until, there's a group a baboons puting up a show at the pool. We waited since we don't want to go into the pool with 'em. Somehow, there's this boy(whom I loath at the moment), walked up to me and said HI. I glanced at Seri and we walked away. I don't wanna fight.

We sat in this BIG room until Nabil arrive. When he did arrived with Adniey, we talked like nothing's bothering me. I didn't even risk to look at him. I am very disturbed by him. Seriously, I wish I've never even met him. =________________________________="

Shy Boy

2011-06-01T05:11:00.000-07:00

I'm the shy one here. There's this guy I like. If I were at school, I'd be stalking him. Even better, I'm probably sms-ing him right now. But here, I'm doing nothing. I'm just staring at him. What's worse is when he talked to me back, I'm just sitting there. Still staring. "Kenape you takut dengan I?" he asks. And my reply was an uh. Wow, way to go Aleen, way to go.

Inner Soul

2011-05-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

Hwang Kwanghee, I'm so proud of youuuu! He made it into Guinesses World of Records weh! My ideal guy, wow, I'm so freaking proud! ;______________________; Currently watching Malay Drama on TV3. Getting tired. But I still can't sleep. Slept for like 2 hours before. LOL. Trying to make up my mind wether or not I should go swimming tomorrow. =___________________________="

Shizzle

2011-05-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

I just found out my housemates are all on 2 weeks vacation. & I'm like HEEEELLL YEEEEEEAH!<3

Crazy

2011-05-28T07:07:00.000-07:00

Coke deprive. Currently watching Boys Over Flower. Again.

Harry Shum Jr

2011-05-27T22:42:00.000-07:00

I'm getting lazier these days. I need to swim more. Random question; how do I do the paper plane? I'm a loser.

Damn Son

2011-05-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

They're so fucking skinny. I need to exercise more.

Keep Calm And Hit Replay Replay Replay

2011-05-26T22:20:00.000-07:00

My favourite moments from the new replay -君は僕のeverything MV. Dubu doesn't have a proper moment.

Choding

2011-05-26T12:12:00.000-07:00

Kiddo, you better stop.

Mom, Dad, I Love You.

2011-05-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

Today's my parents anniversary. But I didn't even buy them anything~ ;_______________________; What kind of a daughter am I?

Gums

2011-05-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

OMG Lee Howon, do you fucking smoke?! Don't smoke!

trol

2011-05-21T12:31:00.000-07:00

No, srsly, you make me LOL. I don't like you, I don't like how you're telling everyone I'm yours. I don't like how you keep calling me everynight. And I am defenitely not amuse by the fact that you keep on calling me dear. So just, back off. I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO NOT LIKE YOU!

Do you really?

2011-05-21T12:27:00.000-07:00

LOL dude, I don't give a shit of what you think of me. If you like me then LIKE me. If you don't well, haters to the left. I don't wanna know how you can't live with me being in your life. Me and my Hogod, is NOT amuse.

OMG

2011-05-21T12:12:00.000-07:00

If wanting to see you perform means looking at you exhausted, I want you to quit. REST MORE SUNGYEOL!

Angel

2011-05-19T22:38:00.000-07:00

We've never talk but,

She rocks!

2011-05-19T22:05:00.000-07:00

Really, I'm in love with this song. Jiyoon unnie, write more song!

For Muzik

2011-05-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

Came back after a day at MSU! LOL! Class starts at 10 next monday. So I have like 4 days of vacay! ^___________________________^ Nowadays, those dudes are just staring at me while the girls are acting like some bitches. Well, we're still new, eh? Let's just wait. Maybe things will get better. Bitches won't be bitches for long. Oh and yeah, Hyuna, I FUCKING HATE YOUUUUU!